- Again
I thank you.
I thank you as
this is all going down
- Again

I am not sure that you are aware
of my tears for you each night
of my pity-party tears for myself

I fell much harder than you know...

No...
I did not fall for you,
I crashed for you.
I crashed into you and I -
I am a
bleeding
pulpy,
meaty,
slimy, fatty,
brains all over the place,
blood and snot smeared face,
piss stinking fucking
dangerously close to death mess.

When I met you,
You said you were alone
and I belieeeeved you
You let on that you liked me,
but ever so...
ever so
subtly so

I was thrilled. I was!
I was thrilled beyond thrilled
and I believed with every once that makes me
all 14 stone of me
all three thousand, two hundred ounces of me
all emotional baggage in tow in me
I belieeeeved
that maybe
just this once
this very once
I could keep myself in check long enough
not to destroy myself …again

BD 05.30.06